Hi Cole, thanks for posting and I am sorry to hear of your struggles.

I know and I understand in general, we are going through hard times. I totally agree that Covid has caused a whole host of ongoing issues including a wrecked economy. Know that you are not alone in feeling discouraged about not being able to buy your own place. Circumstances beyond our control are making it more difficult for almost everyone in the whole country to get by. I feel your pain and I know how discouraging it can be.

It's never too late to meet someone new, learn something new, or try something new. I'm usually all for keeping a predictable routine, however it's really invigorating to go out and try something new, even if it's as simple as trying a new restaurant or taking up a new activity like a video game or watching a TV sitcom. I get into these kind of funks too, working 5 days per week and not having the time or energy to do things I enjoy on my own time. Adulting is hard, speaking from experience.

Just hang in there and take it one day at a time. Cherish your time with your parents  Keep up with your hobbies and try enjoying some sunshine and fresh air. Please don't take it personal about your friends getting married and having kids and not hearing much from them. I encourage you to hit them up on Social Media and see how they're doing or if anyone you know lives nearby for you to catch up with. My thoughts and prayers are with you Cole D. and I enjoy your LG content very much. Take Care 

Camden

Haven't you considered getting a furry friend?
Especially those unwanted by someone, coming from a shelter, may get a new life in your care. Giving your love to an animal with feelings and a strong will to live might give a good sense to your life. And at the end of your life you'll know that they had a good life thanks to your effort.

Just a warning: It's a commitment for years. Everybody has to consider their strengths, time, money, health etc. if they're able to give them their care until the end of their life. Abandoning an animal with a strong affinity to you may be devastating for them.

Take care.

I feel like this is getting worse lately again.

I just keep thinking about how I’m getting so old, (35) and I feel like my life doesn’t really have any purpose or meaning, because I’m not on a relationship and having children.

Probably brought on because several people around me my age and younger have had babies lately.

I see pictures of people on Facebook that are my age, and they look so old, they have wrinkles and their hair is all going gray, and I realize that I’m that old! I’m as old as they are!

And at the holidays I get really depressed. I see all the stuff and events that go on in the community during the holidays, and I feel so left out because I don’t have a SO or even any friends to visit and go out with. I’m just a loner and everyone looks at me like I’m a freak when I go anywhere alone. Like I get so many dirty looks. Plus it gets dark so early.

I see concerts lately that I’d love to go to, but nobody to go with. I don’t even have anybody to go out for lunch with or to a movie or anything.

Yesterday, I felt so bad, that I didn’t even get out of bed until 11:00, which I never do. I didn’t want to go out or anything.

If my mom was doing better, I think I’d be a lot happier, but there’s nothing I can do about that. She’s been so upset and angry lately. When I get home from work she’s always agitated or angry with me. She has demential and constantly forgets things or gets confused, and it’s super sad and stressful.

Nothing anybody does is good enough for her, she just wants to complain all day long, so I just try to avoid her. I’m honestly thinking about moving out next summer if I can, after I save for a few more months. It’s too stressful and depressing to live here.

I feel like I wasted my teens and twenties and didn’t realize how good things were and that it wouldn’t last forever and I would not always have friends in my life. I thought my friends would be there, that we’d be at each others weddings, that we’d still always see each other. But it didn’t happen at all. That’s a valuable lesson, but I feel like nothing is going to get any better in my life, and it’s just going faster and faster, because I don’t do anything. But I also feel like I’m past the point of no return of ever having friends again. I’m just too old.

Don't loose hope, I know that many members here value and appreciate you and your contributions (myself included).

The fact that you are still alive is what matters. Save up to move out and start living on your own. Take walks in more secluded areas, try to give yourself space to think about what you can do. Try to stop comparing yourself to others. They have their lives and you have yours. It may be late, but it's better late than never to take your life back.